My Nineveh. My Africa.


It hasn’t been long since I wrote about being in a dark place, and I haven’t yet come here to say what it was  exactly that brought me out of it, and it still may not be time to explain in detail – mostly because I don’t know the details.

But I can speak of the dark, that I can look back on those places and recognize my own empty, echoing voice, my head shaking NO to God.

And I woke in the middle of the night, in the literal dark, and God was near, but His lips were sealed. And in a sudden, I knew where I was.

I know the belly of the fish. The cave of lost voice. The deafening silence.

Consider in the dark places where Nineveh is

because there, in Nineveh is light and praise and knee-to-floor honesty. There is belief.

Are you fighting against Nineveh?

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11 Comments

Erin M.
Reply June 29, 2010

You are making me bawl my eyes out right now. I don't know if my Nineveh is a place right now or just me making myself available - either way, He is leading me there. And it is scary, because I don't know where it is. But I know my heart will be completely changed forever when I get there. When I finally say yes. Wow.

kendal
Reply June 29, 2010

I always fight against Ninevah. I do not learn. And your words....

joann
Reply June 29, 2010

Yes.
Because I like comfort and control.
BUT I wish I didn't...but maybe not enough to pray for change.

Amber
Reply June 29, 2010

Yes, i think that's right about simply being willing.

Megan@SortaCrunchy
Reply June 29, 2010

Oh, sister. Do I EVER know Ninevah. And the fish belly. I know it and I know it and I know it. (I wrote about it last summer - Jonah & Me ) I hate it that it takes fish vomit to bring to a place of obedience. ("Have you any right to be angry?" That's the most piercing part of the Jonah story for me.)

Tammy@If Meadows speak...
Reply June 29, 2010

My own voice echoes in the belly of dark places. Perhaps I need to hear my voice to know His voice. And to know the salvation of a beachy shore. Your poetic writing always takes beyond the surface...

Elizabeth (@claritychaos)
Reply June 29, 2010

goosebumps.

Janet Cline (JayCee)
Reply June 30, 2010

I totally get what you are talking about. I just wanted to take the summer off from "deep" Bible Study - just do something light - but God said "No, I want you in Jonah." After 'running' for a little while, we officially begin the study of "Jonah" tonight at Ladies' Bible Study. We are using a brand new workbook by Priscilla Shirer. With fear and trepidation, I look forward to what the Lord has to say to me in the belly...in the dark. I'm excited and scared all at the same time.....I'm just relieved that I have been swallowed by a big fish called "Grace!"

~love
Reply June 30, 2010

i love this. muchly. muchly.

i can't talk about it anymore right now, but thank you.

Aimee
Reply June 30, 2010

Stunning.

I've been in the belly of a whale. I hear you.

Kelly @ Love Well
Reply July 1, 2010

I'd like to believe I've grown enough to bypass the whale. I'm scared of Ninevah, but I'm open to going.

Now, to avoid the bitterness on the back side. Honestly, the ending to Jonah is far more poignant to me than the beginning.

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