A Rock Home Companion: Final Installment Part 1


If there were going to be pictures here, I would had to have found my camera and the cord, and then I would had to have captured the deer I saw out my door yesterday, the one that had nibbled at the pear tree with all the heavy arms before she bunnied over the fence and through the field.

I would had to have taken pictures of the many strangers coming in to buy all the furniture I listed on Craigslist and also of the pile of clothes on the bed from 10 bedroom drawers, proving my lack of forethought when I sold our bedroom furniture. What did I think I was going to do with all those clothes?

I would show you pictures of boxes stacked against the wall – full again of China and books and blankets, and I would show you pictures of the carport ready for a huge yard sale this weekend.

I would show you a lot of things, but right now I don’t have pictures and I hardly have words.

But I’m happy

because we’re moving.

We’re moving to a small apartment near dearest friends and a large faith community, and we’re going to squeeze in there, trying to learn about relationships, and trying to cure ourselves of an addiction to stuff, and trying to get free of debt. It’s happening so quickly. Four college girls are moving in here and one amazing girl my age to love on them. Every day in this short two-week process has been good and encouraging. I’ve never known less about tomorrow, or I’ve never been more aware of how little I know. And I might just be learning to like that feeling. Maybe.

Sometimes a God-sized dream means the opposite of BIG. Sometimes it means walking to the laundry mat from your apartment with three little boys parading behind you. Give me a few days. I’ll be back. {The sex posts will resume their awesomeness next Friday.}

And guess what else?! This week I got to hang out with some of the most awesome people I’ve ever encountered. God is so good to encourage you just at the very right time and to give you awesome opportunities to join Him.

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25 Comments

Lora Lynn
Reply July 22, 2010

Does this mean you're coming to the 'Ham? :-) I wish. Happy wanderings, friend.

Prudence
Reply July 22, 2010

Awesome Amber. What an amazing journey you've begun.

Adventures In Babywearing
Reply July 22, 2010

This is fabulous.

I have more to say but it's more about me than you, and so, it's comforting to see you doing this, meets a desire in my own heart, makes it all seem possible.

Steph

Kelly @ Love Well
Reply July 22, 2010

Part 1 indeed. Sounds like a grand story is unfolding around you. I think I know the Author's work.

Praying for you and your sweet family right now, Amber, that your spirits will remain strong. (And that you won't trip over the piles of clothes in the dark. Because ouch.)

Megan at SortaCrunchy
Reply July 22, 2010

Adventure! Exciting! New things! Prayers all the way around.

Sara Sophia
Reply July 22, 2010

Amber, small is big.

and its where all of our hearts should find a home.

Its the same journey everyone needs to take the first step on.
To see all of those things we keep missing.
To make a place for the forgotten.

I want to hear all of it.

<3 Sara Sophia

tiny twig
Reply July 22, 2010

terribly exciting. small is the new big, you know. ;)

Jane Anne
Reply July 22, 2010

I'd like to echo was Steph said. Somehow you doing this speaks to the longing in my heart. It's riveting. I'm encouraged. I commit to praying for you, Seth, and the boys.

melissa @ the inspired room
Reply July 22, 2010

Oh God is doing BIG things as you go small!!! You go girl!! xo

deb
Reply July 22, 2010

something about this makes me sad.
sorry if you didn't want honest.

do love .
It's what you do best.
I'm still a little sad.

kristin
Reply July 22, 2010

Cheering for you guys. Awesome.

Amber
Reply July 22, 2010

Why sad, Deb? No, I do want honest. Honest is good. I know you love.

Tamara
Reply July 22, 2010

Wow... I don't even have my own words. I just want to quote Jack Kerouac back to you... because you "burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!”"

Lisa-Jo@thegypsymama
Reply July 22, 2010

To meet the flesh and blood you, Amber, that was magic to me. Now your heart and your accent and your smile will linger as long as your words in my head.

C
Reply July 23, 2010

I'm not sure why Deb is sad, but I felt sad too, because you have boys and you seemed to fit in the place you were living so well and it provided what you all needed in so many ways. I see how busy it is raising small children watching my sister, and traipsing to the laundromat every other day sounds like a burden you don't need, but then I think my eyes are here on earth, rather than seeing a plan unfold from God.

emily
Reply July 23, 2010

I think this is all so fantastic. You are taking small steps toward big, but really they are big steps. Great big ones from that tiny apartment to the laundry mat. Love it, friend. Cheering you on!

kendal
Reply July 23, 2010

I'm spending the summer intentionally looking for God at work. Thanks for making it easy. I linked back to this post from my latest.

Libby
Reply July 23, 2010

Jealous! House isn't up for sale... yet, but we're working on it!
Moving sale to come soon after the SOLD sign goes up, and down sizing we go!
Life spent chasing after Jesus is going to be anything but dull!
SO glad my sister sent me your blog, we need to spur each other on in brotherly (or sisterly) love!
Party at my "mansion" in Heaven, looking forward to meeting you there!

Mela Kamin
Reply July 23, 2010

I've had this dream myself and have uttered it aloud to my husband many times. We're consumed by, overtaken with, overwhelmed by and focused on stuff. We can't just be or live or enjoy because we're always trying to get out from under our things. I'm cheering for you and know God loves seeing the faithful doing something the world doesn't understand. GO FOR IT and ENJOY!

laura@life overseas
Reply July 24, 2010

Amber . . . so rich for me to read this post today from your heart and your transition. It feels so close in so many ways. The hardness, and yet the goodness of walking counter-culturally is cropping up in your life and your words. And I identify.

I have noticed that an addiction to stuff has grabbed my children by the throat. Even over here, where we have given away most of our things, we still have so much compared to the girls at the orphanage. And seeing how those little girls act, having nothing, and seeing how my own kids act, having so much in comparison, strikes me as so sad. Materialism has entrapped them, and we didn't even know to fight it really.

But, oh, we are now. And it's encouraging to see you fighting it, too. It will be hard.

But, it will be good.

With you in the journey . . . Laura

Carrie
Reply July 24, 2010

Wowee! Look at you guys! We're excited for your journey and a little jealous that we can't be your apartment neighbors! We'll pray grace for your journey!
Love you!

Jenny
Reply July 25, 2010

"Sometimes a God-sized dream means the opposite of BIG."

So true! pray this next season blesses your socks off!

Kelly Langner Sauer
Reply July 26, 2010

wow. what a change for you... I can't imagine. I hope it will be so good.

Fiona
Reply July 27, 2010

oh Amber. You've helped restore my hope in Christian blogland. I've been disillusioned with it all lately - too much of 'me me me' and not enough of Him Him Him. Thanks for being real and being led.

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