how I eat this book
First I have to believe. That’s always it isn’t it? It isn’t that I wonder if there’s a God. It isn’t hard for me to believe that One was born of a virgin – none of that. Sometimes I just doubt forgiveness. I doubt grace, and in this doubt, I become spiritually anorexic – if I eat, I give my identity / control to Someone who should damn me.
I know I am not alone in this. Some of my friends are starving, too. We dwindle and become disoriented. We nibble lies – forget the Gospel, the cross. So many Christians zombie through.
So when I haven’t eaten in a while, I have to retrain my spiritual stomach to accept it.
Like a baby does, I have to call the milk sweet before I nestle. I relearn to root. I start with the tongue. I have to believe so I hold something in my mouth.
“for the Father Himself loves you because you have loved me and have believed that I have come forth from the Father.” John 16:27
And I do believe it. I taste it. I taste Word, the original element out of which was all, is all, will be all. I go back to the elemental things if I have to – not to the high position of arguers but to the low position of simplicity. I believe He loves me.
I’m allowed here, and I keep on eating, because it is so sweet.
- July 22, 2009
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Brad
July 22, 2009Well said, Amber. A blessing to read your post this morning.
Abra
July 22, 2009Beautiful. So true. I am right there with you.
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Ann Voskamp@Holy Experience
July 22, 2009That's it, isn't it? We doubt the need to eat. We look in the mirror and we think we look beautiful enough, strong enough, without eating. Precisely: "We doubt forgivness. We doubt grace." Your phrase encapsulates it: spiritual anorexia....
Suckle the sweet and the true and the needful, friend...
Your words give me an appetite too, prime the gut for the good...
All's grace,
Ann
Whitney
July 22, 2009Beautiful post. I'm so glad to have this blog in my life. I'm with you.
Jo@Mylestones
July 22, 2009I think this is one that belongs in your book somewhere. Great analogy.
The believing of grace, forgiveness, that he loves me, that's the hardest part for me too. But the Word is the continual cure for this continual struggle.
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Christin
July 22, 2009"I go back to the elemental things if I have to - not to the high position of arguers but to the low position of simplicity."
I like this. Thank you for stopping by and leaving a word.
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brittney
July 22, 2009I needed this today.
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HisFireFly
July 22, 2009Only because of His grat love are we allowed to drink and eat and find our nourishment in Him.
This was a beautiful post. Thank you.
Jen@Balancing Beauty and Bedlam
July 22, 2009I need to nibble on this for awhile...so much truth here. :)
Maria
July 22, 2009I love your words here... The metaphors speak to the heart and paint a 1,000 words.
I humbly take to heart what you have written here ... Thank you for such beautiful inspiration. ~Maria
Jane Anne
July 22, 2009I love your analogy.
These words: 'when I haven’t eaten in a while, I have to retrain my spiritual stomach to accept it' are painfully true and real.
These words: "I go back to the elemental things if I have to - not to the high position of arguers but to the low position of simplicity. I believe He loves me. " are beautiful.
I'm off to visit Walk With Him Wednesday. I haven't visited Ann in a while. Thank you.
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Catherine
July 22, 2009He is indeed sweet! Beautiful post!
Blessings,
Catherine :)
Tina Carothers
July 22, 2009You are a blessing to my heart/spirit.
Jill
July 22, 2009Lovely.. "the simplicity and purity of devotion to Christ 2 Cor 11:3"
melody
July 22, 2009mm
deb
July 22, 2009allowing myself , that by grace , I can better nourish my children
BlueCastle
July 22, 2009Beautiful. Somehow you keep writing just what I need to read.