another last day of my life
Today is the last day of my life that I will have a 4 year old, a 2 year old, and a 1 year old. Tomorrow Jude turns three, and I know that’s true because it’s what the calendar says, but it doesn’t make sense to my brain.
Last night when the other boys got still, it was so late, and Jude said, “Mama, I need you to play with my hair,” and I did it because he’s so beautiful. He’s so confident. Last year I described him like this:
I’ve never known such a light-hearted salad eating book-lover who is satisfied fading behind 300 kids or satisfied in a star position, playing alone. No one could ever endure a head injury like you and still be able to work an intricate toddler puzzle. You are a party, our funny, dare-devilishly cautious artist.
This year I add that he loves justice. He wants to see his brothers do right, and he is willing to say “I’m sorry,” when he feels it. Happy Birthday, Jude. I’m so glad to be your mama. You’re worth every stern face I spend on you. You’re worth the correction and the pot of your favorite beans. You’re worth more than what I have to give. I love you and the grace that oozes out.
- July 24, 2009
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melody
July 24, 2009He IS beautiful. Jude-love, when the elements align just right and it comes about, is the most precious gem in the world.
hamster
July 24, 2009i remember really enjoying this kid and feeling that he had some level of chill and calm and peacefulness that i hope the Lord downloads into me one day. he just wasn't wound up about anything. plus, he brought me and seth together for a viewing of THE JUNGLE BOOK at 6 o'clock on a saturday morning. who can argue with that.
happy birthday, sir. blessings on your already uber-blessed head. you're certainly on your way.
Jennifer
July 24, 2009I can't believe it has been 3 years since you missed Vail's first birthday party to have a baby! I still remember walking in that room before you had Jude and you had a calmness to you. Happy Birthday Jude! You have the most amazing mom in the entire world! Hope your birthday is fantabulous!!
Sarah Bessey
July 24, 2009Oh, this was so beautiful, it made me ache. It is worth it.
Jo@Mylestones
July 24, 2009Oh, happy birthday, sweet boy!! And to the sweet boy's mama, may you find a way to hold tight and let go at the same time, to pull him close while you prod him toward life.
Oh, they are so very worth it. Worth more than we have, indeed.
nic
July 24, 2009I love you, too, Jude! So much!! What an awesome kid.
Jane Anne
July 25, 2009Happy Birthday to your little man! Have fun celebrating.