the slow cooker, the messy truth, and gratitude
This is yet another non-post. Some days were not made for writing. They’re made for brewing, for stewing, for meditation. Some days were made for gratitude alone. Today, I am overwhelmed with it.
After sharing my story at A Life in Need of Change, I interviewed with a local radio station, and this Sunday I am sharing with our church. It is humbling. My abortion story grieves me, floors me, but I can say that it is satisfying to share the word of my testimony. Every word of truth out of my mouth is like mortar between me and the Cornerstone. My weight leans more and more into Him.
I believe that if the church doesn’t become a safe place for women to share their struggles, to confess their dirty secrets, and to turn in needy repentance, then women will delve more deeply inward and continue to hide in the dark places. That’s why I tell my dirt, so my children don’t confuse me for something I’m not. My life has never been tidy. Let me not pretend.
I do have another Love Story to write, but for now, I feel like letting the idea sit in a crock pot for a day. It needs to stew. There are so many things in the slow cooker right now so gratitude can do its work.
I have other work to do as well. I speak on writing at Blissdom ’10 this year in Nashville, and as I jot down a note or two on scrap papers stuffed in my schedule, I’ve begun to feel myself glow from the inside. There’s nothing like doing what you feel made to do. Mothering makes me feel this way sometimes, too, but it’s been so long that I’ve considered the whys and hows of writing so as to articulate them.
I love the process of an idea turning into content, into words on words on words. I love how content changes in a flash, when you think you have one thing and it turns into something else. I love how fluid is art, and I love the feeling of it sifting through the mind’s fingers as I try to hold it long enough to evaluate it and then teach its processes.
If you were to sit in a blogger’s session on Writing and Content or in a session on the Writer’s Craft, what questions would you have? I would love to report back here to you about our conversations there, if you’re interested.